I was deaf and never saw...

How do I fix this...
The hurt.. the pain...

Self loathing for events...

I never took the time..
I was too self absorbed...
Your words unheard..
Pain unseen..

Life events happen..
Don't judge too quick...

History does not always repeat itself...

Hearts got broken..For this I am sorry..
I hang my head in shame..
I cannot change this.. It happened...
Forgive not forget...Yes..

I know I substitute for being lonely...
This I did..
I can't explain.. There are no words..

I can't feel empty..
I feel the crush...
Yours I know is greater...
But past it is... And past it went...

I go down on my knees and cry... tears... pain...Flooding..

I feel no peace...

Just deep silence... my soul... my heart... Gone... gone ... gone

My next blogs will be moving... A tale to the sadness... Meeting the dragon...